Labels: Dear, Relationship, Thought

After coaching I went in to JB to find dear. Realise that I am like super glue sticking to him. Just one day never sees him, and I miss him like crazy. So went in JB to look for him… I was sort of scare initially, because it was my 1st time going in alone. But think of able to see him, everything was just nothing. Met him, and he gave me a super big surprise! He told me that his mum ask me to go home and eat! Lol should have told me early lol, and then I have more prepare hehe… Will wear nicer cloth and prepare my speech haha! Meet the parent session so so stress!

We have to wait for his daddy to finish his massage then we go fetch him, so we shop at City Square aimlessly for awhile.
-Brought egg tart for his family and me, chicken wing for him.
-fetch his dad home and rest at his home for awhile. He has supper cute family and I like them, especially his nieces. Super duper cute, just like me haha , both of us are “cute xiao she”… She talk a lot, I guess I was the same when I was small…

His mum cooks for us and keep durian for me to eat lol. DURIAN! My favourite hee... Thanks Aunty… Nice food and durian, so sweet of her to keep a box for me. I did eat lot of durian lol… But have to control, can’t eat too much too, if not I fall sick again then dear will bite me; p

After that we went back to Singapore, her mum wanted to go for a hair cut. Then dear would be sending me home. We were struck in the car for very long on the way back because of traffic jam. This is my first time taking a car back to Singapore, then I realise, having a car might not be that good. Sometime is faster to take public transport rather than have a car. But ya enjoy being struck because it means I can see my dear longer. But it would be better we can reach early so dear don’t need to drive so long, he must be super tired I think… Driving for almost the whole day…

Reach Singapore, went Sheng Shiong to buy some food and brought sweet for me and "Xiao She" then bring her to have KFC. Seriously she is super cute, I was wondering would our kids be like her haha… I really enjoy the meal at KFC. That was the most happiest and delicious meal I have in my life. It was just like, daddy feeding mummy and child, mummy feeding the child and daddy, the child feeding daddy and mummy… Lol super sweet… It’s something I’ve never experience before but have dream of it for long. She was like my daughter and I love to pamper her to see her smile :)

Happy, happy, happy… I love this type of life. I love my dear and his family !

Labels: Dear, Family, JB trip, Life, Relationship, Thought

School: School was boring as usual. UT grade might not be as good as what I wanted. The reason being I didn’t spend enough time to study and there is a few question I wasn’t really sure. Stay at school on Friday to do my FYP’s report. I don’t have a clear idea of what to do, but I just try. Come out with my introduction but wasn’t really satisfy with what I have done.

PS: Have to Thanks dear for accompany in school till so late, lol we study together till 8 plus almost 9pm. After that we went to watch movie at CWP. Not a very good show though, I would rate 2 out of 5 popcorn. Btw the show was “Blood the last vampire”.

Coaching: I have one new class added on Sunday at 9am. Lesson was quite fun, just that don’t know why, I make 3 kids cry ytd…Lol Unfriendly face I guess. Kinda of being too impatient and fierce I guess .I can’t believe I would punish the kid just in his first lesson. Should be more lenient I guess?

Labels: Coaching, Dear, Life, Relationship, School

我每一天好开心OH!
每天一醒来时,想到你我就会很甜蜜的笑,
看到你我会很开心的笑,
抱你时我会很幸福的笑...
幸福的我希望永远有这样的幸福...
棒极爱,我的老公!

Labels: Dear, Me, Relationship, Thought

I’ve a bad bad cold, going to fall sick le. Can anyone save me! I promise dear dear I won’t get sick de lol! Lol I find that I am getting older and older. Get sick and tired easily … Feel like going home to sleep now. Too bad got UT! 2 more hrs to end school, still need to work today… Sianz Zzz… Won’t be able to see dear dear today, because by the time I reach there, he would have gone to school already. But he will meet me tonight after his school. So Happy! Happy! Happy! Happy :)

Labels: Dear, Relationship, Sick

Just came back from my Holiday, went Genting and Sunway Lagoon. Complete 3 tasks that I’ve plan to do before I went for holiday. Some of the tasks are tasks that I have wanted to do it very long ago.

1st task: Fulfil the dream we have together ½ year ago. It been very long since I want to do these ever since we break up, but I can’t find any time, since it school holiday now, I complete this dream myself. I’m sorry for doing it myself when by right we could have done it together. If only I didn’t have make that stupid decision. However since it past then I should let it go. Stay back in the past would only make both of us even sadder. Not sure how have you been recently, but I really wish you all the best and take care. I would upload some of the picture that we were suppose to take together!

2nd task: Celebrate my Mummy’s Birthday! Again? Haha yup again, last year her birthday we went; now we went again. Next year gona come out with new plan le ; p I hope she enjoy this year trip! Happy Birthday Mummy!

3rd task: Let me have some time to rest and think. Have super enough rest, because I’ve been sleeping quite a lot. In bed, In hotel… Think a lot during the journey as well. Realise that there is something that I should have let go long time ago and shouldn’t have give myself so much stress. When I should let go, let it go, trying hard to get it won’t really work because it doesn’t belong to me.Also realise that my time is always spenf with my mummy, I work, study, eat,sleep and live for her.She happy I happy, I really love my mum, but sometime I do wish there is someone who can work, eat sleep and live for me as well ;p

I should try my best and do my part rather than bothering too much, I should love people rather than treat them as people, I should care for my love one rather than just telling them I love them, I should be happy because everyone I love is happy rather than because I am happy, I should be more willing to share and sacrifice rather than take and keep, I should plan for what I want to do rather than waiting for plan for me to do.

My new plan for the year:
I am going to learn how to love people.
I am going to learn how share and sacrifice for people.
I am learning how to give by best and be the only one for everything in my life.
I am learning how to spare my time for everything, school, work, you and mummy!
But if sometime if I don’t have time for you don’t blame me k :(
I am learning how to be a better girlfriend.
PS: Lao Gong if you find I am not good enough tell me ok! I will improve myself because of you ; p
爱你! 爱你! 爱你!

Labels: Holiday, Mummy, Relationship

My mum told me, Desmond have give up on me and yes it is time to give up on him too, it is easy to say then being done. I’ve try, but can I really? I decided to give it a try again, to start a new relationship and this time round I'm going to treasure him!

Thanks for choosing to be with me despite knowing my past record. I though both of us would never had a chance. It might seem quick that we are together as we are only so close this few days, but we’ve know each other for years. I believe we will last forever.

Being with you is not the though of one of two day. It has been weeks that I am thinking about it. Thinking if I really can give up on him and be with you! I am not sure if he will leave my heart completely. Even though I am with you now, there is once a few days, he would pop out in my mind again.

But trust me; give me sometime to forget him! I will do my best to give you my true heart. This time, I am not going to loss the one I love and who love me too. Treasure every days, hrs, mins , secs with you.

My stupid Pig I love you so so much!

我爱你!
真的真的好爱你!

Labels: Dear, Me, Relationship

Sorry all the guy out there. I seriously don’t think I am fit to have a relationship with anyone now. So stop treating me so good, as I don’t deserve it! I just want to be alone now. Work hard, earn money and bring good life to my mum!

Labels: Guy, Me, Relationship

It’s been 3 week since I last contact him. Wondering how is he? Have him eaten enough, rest enough and feeling well. Hope he does!

Just finish watching my show. Every time I watch that show, it reminds me of him. The character in that show is just like acting our story only the role changes. The guy is younger than the girl 8 year. It just likes us I am 13 years younger than him. The thing they have gone through is some how similar like what we have gone through. Both of them face it together, and half way through they give up. But the Guy actor, work even harder to save the relationship back. I am doing what he is doing now. Never think that I will have the same ending as them, but I still want to try. As long as I try, there is chance.

I know I shouldn’t sound so Emo… But it really will take me a very long long time to heal. Because losing him, is just not part of my life but is losing all my life.

Labels: Future, Me, Relationship

有一个人对我说: 因为我爱他所以我一定要得到他。。。
这一句话是乎让我醒过来了。。。
因为我爱他所以我一定要得到他。。。
可是得到他了我们还会像以前一样吗?
我会开心吗?
他会开心吗?
失去了以失去不关我在怎样舍不得,珍惜，保护, 想挽回它始终还是会离开我，因为我不配当它的主人，就让它好好的活在我心里吧。。。
只希望他能够好好的照顾好自己，珍惜该珍惜的人或事, 天天开开心心。。。

Labels: Relationship, 爱他不一定要得到他

今天是21th号, 想把五个Luckly SEVEN送给你

第一个七: 你是我第七个男朋友也是我想要的最后一为
在加七: 认识你时我才十四岁,第一次看见你时就觉得你好可爱Oh!
在加七:21th号你还记得吗? 那是我最开心的一天,因为那天是我正式成为你的女朋友!
在加七: 认识我时你二十八岁了,但是我就是那么的爱你, 不在乎任何的事,不管怎样就是想和你在一起. 只要我们能在一起那就够了…你能为我穿T-shirt, Jean 和 spike 你的头发, 我也能为你穿dress, 工作赚钱和你一起创造未来…

谢谢你给我的四个Luckly SEVEN这也代表我们四年美好的感情…
你一定在想为什么少第五个七对吗?

在加七你就三十五岁: 我们成说过在你三十五岁结婚, 还要身四个baby oh!
王俊龙, 王俊倢, 王俊丰, 王凯忻…

但是因为我,我们不能实现这个希望
真的对不起!

送给你五个Luckly SEVEN以对你给我的四个Luckly SEVEN说声谢谢

Labels: Love you 21th, Relationship

I am back to my usual self, start to slack in school and enjoy my life. I not sure is this good for me, but one thing I am very sure is I am very happy now, just like 4 year ago.

I won’t be trouble by him anymore; he would still be in my heart forever but not my mind. I’m not go to let him trouble me, not going to look for him for the time being, although it’s very temping.

I don’t need to be stress on where to work today and what to do or study in school; I just want to enjoy my life now. I might not be like effective as I use to be in my last few month, but I think I really need a rest! Rest is to allow myself to walk longer.

Labels: Relationship, Zzzz

After working at Xin Wang for so many weeks, I finally understand his feeling at that point of time. I came to realize he is right to leave me, No i should say, he is lucky that i choose to break up with him because I am just a shity Ex and doesn't deserve him!

Now, I am going through the loneliness and tiredness he was facing. I can feel how badly he needs me to be with him and accompany him just like how I feel now. Now then I understand why he wanted to see me every day. If only I’ve work at the same hour as him, go through the same thing as he did and understand how he feel at that time, then everything would not have been in this way.

I just don’t know how to appreciate him that time. I am just taking him for granted and doesn’t treasure him! I thought I am right all the time. All the time! But! Now then I know, I am wrong, totally wrong! I am a big, big failure! A lot of things to say to him, but I just can’t use words to describe.

I can only say: 对不起過去的我太不会珍稀了...
真的对不起!
我真的好想你...

Labels: His life wasn't as easy as what I think..., Relationship

他曾迳对我说: “看见你那么的累, 那么的辛苦, 让我觉得好心疼.” 当時的我觉得这句话并没有什么, 但是如果他现在对我说同样的话, 我会对他说: 谢谢你那么疼我, 因为有你的疼爱所以我一点也不辛苦... 我真的好想他!

Labels: Relationship, 好想, 好想他...

Lol... I feel so bored... Nothing to blog about.... This few day busy attachment , SLI and ya went Malaysia with desmond. Brough new sunglasses and cap. A bit sad dough, because i couldnt find the puma's sunglasses that i use to have. SO i brought a OkAY one which look not bad also but not as cool as my puma one la!

Alright some picture to show... Celebrate his 32th birthday last year.




Ugly us and our dinner set.... Delicious pasta!

Labels: Relationship, You and me...

More old photo:

Labels: Photo, Relationship

I just went to is friendster and i came across this comment that i gave him 2 year ago:

DeAr ThAnK 4 dOTtinG sO mUcH hee LoVe U aLOt Alot No 1 cAn rEpLaCe u iN mY hEarT k aNoThEr 2 dAy wE wILL bE tOgetHEr 4 1 & hAlf YrS Le sO sAd gIVe u toRtURe 4 sO loNg bUt iT oK i Am wILLiNg 2 Give u TotURe 4 EveR heE LoVe u AlwaYs... HaPpY 1&hALf Yrs AnNiVAsARy...MUcK mUcK

Such a happy moment... I've decided to post our memories from now on. I use to buy him clothes everytime i miss him and pass it to him when i see him. Since i can't do it anymore, I would choose this alternative.The moment i miss him i post his picture.... We've got lot of picture to show nA!

Labels: Dear, Me, Memories, Relationship

Yesterday, after swimming i went home alone. On the way home i started crying. I just still cant get over him. This time we really broke off.I sit at the void deck and cry continuously. After crying alone for ½ an hour at my void deck, I decided to let go of him. I never knew my love for him was so great till yesterday. I though I don’t love him anymore already, cause the first time I break up with him, I get over very fast. I didn’t cry, or feel sad. That because, our break up was just on the surface. Which mean my heart was still deeply attach to him. I look as though I broke off with him but I still can’t live without him. I know I’m still able to look for him when I miss him. Call or sms him and ask him out until yesterday everything come to an end.

I came to realize I couldn’t do that anymore. We are really broken up! I can’t look for him any more. It time I need to live without him. He has a girlfriend now and I should let him go. Since I can’t give him what he want, I have to let go.
But I can’t bear to let go of him. That why the moment I think of him, I cry. I just can’t stop. I don’t know what I can do, but just crying and crying. I try to think about the bad thing he did in the past to let me stop crying but I just can’t find any. All I could think was all our happy memories and the way he treat me, giving me all the best. How can I let such a good guy to go? I don’t know! Even till now, I come to think of it I still would cry. I miss him badly; I don’t know when I could get over the life without him.

Today when I wake up, I ask myself can I marry him. I am not very confirmed but I know I love him a lot. So maybe we could give each other one more chance and be together. 4 year ago I can do everything for him, now I also can.

So I send a sms to him and ask:
Do you really have girlfriend?
He replies: If I don’t have girlfriend would you accept me. If I have will you accept me also?
So I say: Just tell me the truth, do you have girlfriend?
He say: Yes.
So I told him all the best and take care.

Since he really have a girlfriend then I should give up already. I might not promise him to give him future. SO I shouldn’t waste his time and let him loss the opportunity of getting a new girlfriend.

He asked: Do you wish to be with me again? Yes or No?
I told him: It does matter anymore, because it won’t make much different. Stay with your girl, she can give what you want. And take care.
He replies me: No one can replace you in my heart. 5 month ago there is only one girl in my heart, 5 month later there is also still one girl in my heart.

I don’t know what I should replies. But I know from today on, I am going to walk out from him. I am no longer his girl, I am just alone…

We were together on 21th October 2005 and we break up offically on 22th Feb 2009....

Labels: Relationship, We were together on 21th October 2005 and we break up offically on 22th Feb 2009....

One more post for my work. Work has been making me useless and even more useless. No matter how much effort I put in I just not as comparable as Wen Sen. Why is this so? The boss is always praising him and appreciating his work, but not mine. What else can I do to show them I am useful too? My work always seems useless to them. I seem like just wasting their time by looking at my presentation. It makes me feel use dumb and useless. I really can’t stand it anymore! It makes me really stress up when they assign work for both of us. Wen Sen is always doing the best thing but I am always to be see as not really good/ room for improvement.

Although there is some praise from them today, but it still really shows my work is just useless. Cause they would always only use Wen Sen work but not my. WHAT THE FUCK! I really did put in a lot of effort for that report. It took me 3 day to do and I even wake up 5am to do it just to do a really good report. BUT WHY WHY WHY???? Why they still don’t really appreciate. Is it because my language is not good enough? But that me, I have already try to improve and do my best. So what else can I do???? I try to boost my moral very day to come to work and do my best. I tell myself I can and it just 5 more weeks to go. But I am afraid this cant last long cause I am really stress up already. God please send an angel to guide me, I really had enough. Failure in work and relationship just shut my world down. I can’t take it anymore!

Labels: Life, Relationship, Work

My mood isn’t good today! 1st because of yesterday, 2nd due to the presentation I did just now. I have thought a lot since yesterday. Why have I changed my thinking so much?

Why I can't marry him now? I still love him just like I love him 4 year ago. In fact even more cause “you wont know how much you love a person till you loss it” I loss him once and I know how much I love him. However why??? I just can’t promise I will marry him. I loss faith in myself, my goal have change from marry him to making lot and lot of money. I can’t change this goal back, it is so determined. What am I thinking??? I really don’t know? Can anyone tell me what should I really do? I don’t one to regret one day.

Labels: Desmond, Me, Relationship, Work

-CHRISTINA GOH-
Birthday:18/11/1989
School:Republic Poly
Horoscope:Scorpio
Zodia: Snake

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