Monday, February 23, 2009 11:26 AM
My mood isn’t good today! 1st because of yesterday, 2nd due to the presentation I did just now. I have thought a lot since yesterday. Why have I changed my thinking so much?
4 year ago, I am more than willing to marry him.
I make plan for our future. We plan for our home, who to live with and even where to live at. Plan for our baby and even have our baby name already.
4 year ago, I told myself he is the guy I am looking for and no one else.
I would love him with all my heart no matter what. I would never leave him, I promise!
4 year ago everything I do is just for him.
I can promise him everything and give him everything. 4 year ago, everyone in my eyes is just nothing. No guy can beat him and he is the best. My one and only one!
4 year ago, we were so happy, we share the same dream and wish.
But Y???
Why I can't marry him now? I still love him just like I love him 4 year ago. In fact even more cause “you wont know how much you love a person till you loss it” I loss him once and I know how much I love him. However why??? I just can’t promise I will marry him. I loss faith in myself, my goal have change from marry him to making lot and lot of money. I can’t change this goal back, it is so determined. What am I thinking??? I really don’t know? Can anyone tell me what should I really do? I don’t one to regret one day.Labels: Desmond, Me, Relationship, Work
Wednesday, February 11, 2009 1:52 PM
I forgot to mention that Desmond has gone to Genting yesterday. Although I don’t have the chance to go with him, I hope he enjoy himself. He says he will be meeting me, once he is back! Yuppy! I AM SO EXCITIED! He will be back the day before Valentine’s Day. Although I will be coaching on that day, I hope to spend my night with him hehe! Sound so wrong lol, but I know what I mean can already. What pass is pass, we can’t change the past, but we can change present!
Talking about coaching, I got one piece of good news to share! Uncle Robert told me he is going to give a few more new classes. I am so duper happy. More class= more money! I really wish Uncle Robert can give me a lot more and not just more. Earning about $1000 per month is still not enough for me. I need to earn more to be happy and to give my family happiness.Labels: Adding on.., Desmond, Relationship