Hi, sorry I was busy with helping out in the F1 thingy for this few day, so I don’t have time to blog. Alright this few day was a terrible days for me. I went to help out for the F1 and it was super boring. It seems that they pay us $6 just to go down and sit down. We went there for 3days. The 1st day we reach the place at about 12pm. Then we were brought to an unknown place. After that they ask us to sweep and mop the floor. That all we need to do. Furthermore the thing we need to do are not written in the contract. We only did that for like 1hrs then the rest of our days we were sitting down resting. If not go for sight-seeing. When we ask the in-charge what we need to do? All his reply was: “Good question, I don’t know” Everything was very unorganised.

I was super bored in the evening and I miss him a lot. It has been quite sometime we meet and talk on the phone for hrs. Ever since we break up

Last time when every time if I go out he will sms me check if I am alright. He will check, if I am bored, hungry, tired, etc. If I have not reach home by 12am, he would check what time I reach home and the moment I am alone he will call and accompany, till I reach home. He wont sleeps till I reach home. He will be the 1st one to call me follow by my mum.

Anyway during the journey home, I cry inside the bus. I felt very lonely and I keep thinking bout the past when we were together.

The 2nd day of F1 was another boring day. However it was more organise. We were only ask to pick up rubbish at the grand stand. Same thing, we pick up for 1/2hrs then the rest of the day we rest. Sitting down along the sea and chatting with my friend. In addition, when thinking of my past, lot of memorise of him came into my mind.

To tell the truth, I hope to sms and call him every min of my day when I was at there. I miss him badly and I really wish to call and talk to him. Sms him and ask him what is he doing, have he eaten, etc. However since we break up and it seem I am disturbing him, if I call him.

On that day, I went home without calling him and cry on the way home. I never felt so lonely and scare before. I hate loneliness, dark, and without him!

Labels: F1 make me feel lonely, Relationship

Just arrive and went for dinner






My bro play pool...

Went out for a walk...






Went for praying

Labels: I was still a happy girl, Relationship

Yesterday was a happy and sad's day for me. I was happy because I have a fun day with my mum and bro. We went to the coffee shop opp the old Sembawang Shopping Centre to have our dinner. It been a long time we have dinner together. We order lot of thing that I almost full to death. We order satay, vegetable, sweet and sour pork (not really nice), Chicken and lastly of all Chicken wing. However we end up packing the Chicken wing home and my pig bro finish everything. He is such a big eater, after eating so much thing he still can finish the 3 chicken wings after we reach home. Why we pack the chicken wing home? Because we have order it and the aunty forgot about it. We finish our dinner and intend to go off. But my bro feel bad about it, so he go check with the aunty and then no choice we pack home lol. Then when we reach home, my bro finish everything, so pig!


Alright that will be the happy part... Now the sad part of the day, yesterday he called and sms me. He asks for patch again because he saw my blog. Well the reason for me to set up this blog was to express myself and to find sonmeplace to express my thought. I don’t intend to let him know about it. Alright back to him... After reading my blog, he sms me and ask me to patch. Our conversation:

Desmond: Can we give other one more chance Me: No , we cant be together anymore, we won't be like last time.
Desmond: I read you blog and know that you are unhappy; we make yourself hurt when you still love me? I promise we will be happy like last time as long as u give me the chance

This is some part of the conversation, the rest i don’t wish to continue. He keep insisted to patch back until I told him, I don’t love him anymore. I am stupid right? He is giving me one more chance yet I give up this chance again! What am i thinking? Well I really don’t know what to do?

I miss him a lot, but I don’t know if I still love him a not! I am afraid that i would hurt him again. Although he forgives me, and he told me that his family don’t mind. But I just cant face him and his family.

Labels: I wish i am single, Relationship

Well first time trying to blog, nothing much to blog about. K let see what can I blog about, erm alright share with you all what happen to me recently. It was a night mare to me for the pass few week. I break with my boyfriend, who has been together with him for 4 year. I seriously don't know what went wrong with me. I insisted to break with him because of a stupid guy that I know only for a few month.

The story goes like this. I have been very close to his guy when I was with my boyfriend. One day my boyfriend checks my phone and found out about it. As a result we quarrel and out of anger he calls for a break up. At first I rejected and we end up having cold war for a few day. After that we meet up and he ask for a patch and he would forgive whatever mistake that i have done. However , I can’t make decision at that time.I need a break, I need time to think and be alone, so i told him I want to break and be just being friend with him. That was the most stupid thing i ever done. What am I doing? I really don't know. I gave up a guy, who I use to love so much. I gave up a guy who loves me so much that could give everything to me, even his life. Yet I make that decision! So we break off on 30/08/08!!!

At first I thought I made the right decision. I though giving him up, both of us would be happier. I thought life without him would be a lot better, but it not. For the first week, everything seems alright. I go to school, work, eat, play and sleep as usual. Nothing much different from usual, but thing start to changes in second week.

I start to feel something went wrong with me. I am no longer the girl I use to be. The girl who always put a smile on her face is gone. Every time when I am alone, I would miss him a lot. I wish I could call him, go out with him, see him, hug him, etc. Sweet memories that had been through with him all came into my mind, every little thing... Everyday is like a torture to me, I need to make myself look happy al the time when I am with the guy, so he won’t think too much. I have try lot of way to be happy but I can’t. Overtime when I am alone and free I would start to think about him again. I hate to be alone! I hate to be free! I hate myself!

Alright, those are the thing that happen to me for the past few week.Now i am trying to carry on with my life and stop thinking bout him. Because of this, i did not do a good job in class this week. Daily grade for the whole week was like shit. B for all module. I need to buck up and stop being bother by all this thing. I am going to work even harder to move toward my goal. Everyone have ask me not to think so much and carry on with life. Letting nature take it course is the only solution. The only way to stop me from missing him, would be making myself busy and tired everyday . In addition all the precious photo that we have taken last time . Well that all i have now, post it other day when i am free. Alright gtg,blog other day.

Labels: Only if i am contented..., Relationship

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