I am so screw… Why am I making kids cry recently? Kids crying made me so confused and stress. The kids cry one after another. One stop crying and next start to cry and this continue… Tired Zzz, how can I make them stop crying?

Is it normal that they cry when they are scare of water and they get punish because they do something wrong??? Why the tendency of me punishing them is high recently? Bad mood? I don’t think so, because I am clear I am in the good mood. But why am I being so strict and I just couldn’t implement fun element in my lesson? It seems bored and systematic… Kids cry, don’t like me, and seem to scare of me! I use to able to solve all these problem but now I am clueless of what I should do. Uncle Patrick has to step in to help me! He seems to have something to tell me about my coaching style on Sunday, but have yet tell me. I didn’t have the chance to see him. Hopefully he call me by today, if not I will be keep on thinking and thinking what he want to tell me. I feel very worry bout that. Hopefully is nothing too seriously.

Seems to loss interest in coaching! NO! I shouldn’t have this type of thinking. Got to love my job, love the thing I do and love the kids… I think I am too confident about myself that I though I am already consider to be the best coach just like the senior when I am not even able to coach well. Much more to learn… Got to be more humble and not over confident.

Motto: Learn what I need to learn and admit wrong when I am wrong….

Labels: Coaching, Stress..., Thought

I am so stress recently. Everyday FYP, FYP, FYP. Although I spend most of my time trying to learn and do my FYP, but I just seem to be so loss. Super duper lot of question in my mind and I just can blame myself for being so stupid and yet acting clever. I should have asked for help long time ago, yet I am so stubborn and keep on thinking I can solve it myself! I always blame other for being so clever yet I never blame myself for being so stupid. I always blame others for not helping me, when I myself don’t dare to ask.

I find that I have been thinking too much and are all too negative! How stupid am I to think that if I ask too much, Shige will think I am not hard working enough or never pay attention to him and he will deduct my point. The truth is I did try hard, but it just doesn’t goes into my head. Since I don’t understand I‘ve to ask. So what if he really will deduct point, the important thing is I learn in the process, rather than being so loss now!

Ytd I almost give up on my study. I even though of just drop out and coaching swimming will do, since by coaching I am able to earn a living already! But, is that what I really want? Christina is always like that, once she faced with obstacle, and stress, she gave up! I talk to myself for a long time. What can I do, and what I have done wrong that cause me to have this result?

Come out with two solutions, 1st: carry on to be so loss and hope I can just pass my fyp, if failed then that it…

2nd: Going to Shige ask the entire question in my mind and ask for help. Since I know I might fail, must well ask him and try to do a decent report. Even if I fail, I’ve try my best and I learn in the process.

Yes decided to go the second want. Going to skip Friday school and meet Shige for the whole day to clarify all my doubt. I’ve jot down the question I want to ask, I don’t want to be so losses again, hope I can do well this time.Last chance for me not to give up! If not I got to coach for my rest of my life; p

Labels: FYP, Life, Though

After coaching I went in to JB to find dear. Realise that I am like super glue sticking to him. Just one day never sees him, and I miss him like crazy. So went in JB to look for him… I was sort of scare initially, because it was my 1st time going in alone. But think of able to see him, everything was just nothing. Met him, and he gave me a super big surprise! He told me that his mum ask me to go home and eat! Lol should have told me early lol, and then I have more prepare hehe… Will wear nicer cloth and prepare my speech haha! Meet the parent session so so stress!

We have to wait for his daddy to finish his massage then we go fetch him, so we shop at City Square aimlessly for awhile.
-Brought egg tart for his family and me, chicken wing for him.
-fetch his dad home and rest at his home for awhile. He has supper cute family and I like them, especially his nieces. Super duper cute, just like me haha , both of us are “cute xiao she”… She talk a lot, I guess I was the same when I was small…

His mum cooks for us and keep durian for me to eat lol. DURIAN! My favourite hee... Thanks Aunty… Nice food and durian, so sweet of her to keep a box for me. I did eat lot of durian lol… But have to control, can’t eat too much too, if not I fall sick again then dear will bite me; p

After that we went back to Singapore, her mum wanted to go for a hair cut. Then dear would be sending me home. We were struck in the car for very long on the way back because of traffic jam. This is my first time taking a car back to Singapore, then I realise, having a car might not be that good. Sometime is faster to take public transport rather than have a car. But ya enjoy being struck because it means I can see my dear longer. But it would be better we can reach early so dear don’t need to drive so long, he must be super tired I think… Driving for almost the whole day…

Reach Singapore, went Sheng Shiong to buy some food and brought sweet for me and "Xiao She" then bring her to have KFC. Seriously she is super cute, I was wondering would our kids be like her haha… I really enjoy the meal at KFC. That was the most happiest and delicious meal I have in my life. It was just like, daddy feeding mummy and child, mummy feeding the child and daddy, the child feeding daddy and mummy… Lol super sweet… It’s something I’ve never experience before but have dream of it for long. She was like my daughter and I love to pamper her to see her smile :)

Happy, happy, happy… I love this type of life. I love my dear and his family !

Labels: Dear, Family, JB trip, Life, Relationship, Thought

Father’s Day???

I almost forget about this day until I saw all my friend blog…Never though of celebrating Father’s Day at all,because I don’t have a father. Well not that I really don’t have but I don’t want to have. So ya no father’s day like others who is busy celebrating Father’s Day. But wish those who are a good father : Happy ’s Father Day!

Got to go off to find dear... TaTa!

Labels: Father, Life, Though

School: School was boring as usual. UT grade might not be as good as what I wanted. The reason being I didn’t spend enough time to study and there is a few question I wasn’t really sure. Stay at school on Friday to do my FYP’s report. I don’t have a clear idea of what to do, but I just try. Come out with my introduction but wasn’t really satisfy with what I have done.

PS: Have to Thanks dear for accompany in school till so late, lol we study together till 8 plus almost 9pm. After that we went to watch movie at CWP. Not a very good show though, I would rate 2 out of 5 popcorn. Btw the show was “Blood the last vampire”.

Coaching: I have one new class added on Sunday at 9am. Lesson was quite fun, just that don’t know why, I make 3 kids cry ytd…Lol Unfriendly face I guess. Kinda of being too impatient and fierce I guess .I can’t believe I would punish the kid just in his first lesson. Should be more lenient I guess?

Labels: Coaching, Dear, Life, Relationship, School

我每一天好开心OH!
每天一醒来时,想到你我就会很甜蜜的笑,
看到你我会很开心的笑,
抱你时我会很幸福的笑...
幸福的我希望永远有这样的幸福...
棒极爱,我的老公!

Labels: Dear, Me, Relationship, Thought

I’ve a bad bad cold, going to fall sick le. Can anyone save me! I promise dear dear I won’t get sick de lol! Lol I find that I am getting older and older. Get sick and tired easily … Feel like going home to sleep now. Too bad got UT! 2 more hrs to end school, still need to work today… Sianz Zzz… Won’t be able to see dear dear today, because by the time I reach there, he would have gone to school already. But he will meet me tonight after his school. So Happy! Happy! Happy! Happy :)

Labels: Dear, Relationship, Sick

Not sure is these what a good gf have to do, but hopefully it is. Realise I’ve grown and change a lot, after going through the previous break up. Which is a good thing I guess? Learning how to appreciate and treasure Love which is not part of my life in the past, BUT NOW IT IS!

Thing that I use to think is unnecessary, wrong, stupid and shouldn’t be done, now because opposite. It is necessary to care for the person who I love. Necessary to report to him, listen to him and accompany him at all time if possible. It is a right thing to sacrifice for him, to spend my time for him, to share everything with him. It is not stupid to do anything for him as long as I love him. Nothing can be more stupid than loss the one you love.

Cooking for someone to eat is an impossible thing to do but now is possible. Paying for my own thing or buying thing for my love one is like once is a life time, but now to me is just part of my life. Taking advantage of the person who loves me is what I use to do but not now. A BIG BIG NO!

I love him, so I must learn to treasure. I learn to improve and to hold this relationship. I enjoy begin with him everyday and I don’t wish to do anything that would make me regret again.

Enjoy my life together with you now. It not just I, me and myself anymore, but we, us and together!

Labels: Dear, Me, Random

Then next day went to have early breakfast. Supper tired wake up at 7am, just to eat that not good breakfast Zzz…. The best thing is by right we were not entitling to the breakfast because the person who book for us forget to help us right. 707 companies, not good wont go to that company again! But we just slip in lol Haha but my cousin was unable to join us Haha because he went to check and left us there to enjoy our breakfast haha.

After that we went to Sunway Lagoon. By right we were suppose to go there to play, if follow my plan. But we end up shopping for the whole day and everyone was supper bored and tired. Seriously regret I never go and play. Go Sunway but never play! WTF!

We took a cab down to Time Square, where there shopping centre is 10 times bigger than CWP, my Lao Gong told me de la! And they have the rollercoaster in the shopping mall. It look dam exciting but expensive so I never sit.

Oh when we were there something very funny. My uncle is a very so called “stingy person” so he doesn’t realy like to spend. Always save,save,save! So he always bring us go eat the cheapest food, which is food court and the food was like Zzz… So when we were there, he suggest going to food court to eat again. Then my naughty cousin, purposely choose restaurant. He ask us go eat SUI KING. Haha majority win. Everyone eat SUI King, as a result he went to eat Mac and we eat Sui. LOL his poor wife and daughter have to pei him! HAZI sad they should just follow us to enjoy.

Alright then shop at there I brought a jean and a key chain for Dear Dear. Hehe is a pig head written Sha Zhu and Ben Zhu. Don’t know why went I saw this word Sha Zhu I think of him, hehe so I brought it for him lol, since he always called me SHa Po :)

Then we went to the Chinatown at KL, they sell lot of Imitation: LV, Levi, Adidas, Nike, etc. All at super cheap price provided you bargain with them. I brought a (Tiffany &co.) necklace and 2 pair of sunglasses at 50RM.

Then we went back hotel again, my mum and brother went to sleep and I went shopping with my cousin.

Next day wake up have breakfast, delicious. Super worthwhile, it been a long time I have enjoy myself. Nice hotel (4 stars) and nice breakfast. Then we went to take photo, shopping and prepare to go home.
Reach home at around 11plus and Zzz… Gd night!

Labels: Family, Holiday trip 2, Life

Alright enough of my love update, too much of love make me forgotten about my daily life. Got to update my Genting trip!

Well is kinda of boring, too crowded and weather wasn’t that cooling. Whatever you play you need to queer up and it really killed the fun. It took us around 1hrs to wait just to play a game. WHT! I just play about 4 games and I decided to give up. Went back to hotel and have a bath. It really humid and it make me sick. I can’t believe I can bath cold water, eat ice cream and wear short and t-shirt at Genting.

Oh ya but I went to the restaurant that my Lao Gong tell me. Its down the hill, you need a bus to get down. If walk, I think you need about 1hrs ba? Haha have no idea. Nice place to have dinner, lot of people, but the food I find it quite ok only la! Maybe is because the food they order is not my favourite, they don’t want to order the food I recommend: ( so forget it. Just eat and SHUT UP! After eating we take photo and take the bus back to hotel. Lol btw, the durian they sell there smell dam nice but expensive though. So I didn’t get to eat :(

Mummy say too expensive ask me don’t eat! Lol I miss durian so so much! It has been a long long time since I consume nice durian, wondering when I can have it again …

When we get back, we went to play again, this time round lesser people cause going to close le ma! Only stupid people like us will go and play but seriously it much better compare to afternoon. Much cooling and scary! Haha I play the scariest machine 3 times! After the theme park have close we went to play basketball. Wont a lot of ticket all by myself k! hehe my brother and cousin play all those no ticket de L This time not enough ticket to change thing only able to change a teddy bear for mummy as birthday present. My intention was to change something for Lao gong de but Not enough, so sorry!

Then head back to hotel, brought a cake and wait for the birthday’s girl to come back and celebrate her birthday. Sing song, photo, eat, party and Zzzz slp!

Labels: Family, Holiday trip, Life

Just came back from my Holiday, went Genting and Sunway Lagoon. Complete 3 tasks that I’ve plan to do before I went for holiday. Some of the tasks are tasks that I have wanted to do it very long ago.

1st task: Fulfil the dream we have together ½ year ago. It been very long since I want to do these ever since we break up, but I can’t find any time, since it school holiday now, I complete this dream myself. I’m sorry for doing it myself when by right we could have done it together. If only I didn’t have make that stupid decision. However since it past then I should let it go. Stay back in the past would only make both of us even sadder. Not sure how have you been recently, but I really wish you all the best and take care. I would upload some of the picture that we were suppose to take together!

2nd task: Celebrate my Mummy’s Birthday! Again? Haha yup again, last year her birthday we went; now we went again. Next year gona come out with new plan le ; p I hope she enjoy this year trip! Happy Birthday Mummy!

3rd task: Let me have some time to rest and think. Have super enough rest, because I’ve been sleeping quite a lot. In bed, In hotel… Think a lot during the journey as well. Realise that there is something that I should have let go long time ago and shouldn’t have give myself so much stress. When I should let go, let it go, trying hard to get it won’t really work because it doesn’t belong to me.Also realise that my time is always spenf with my mummy, I work, study, eat,sleep and live for her.She happy I happy, I really love my mum, but sometime I do wish there is someone who can work, eat sleep and live for me as well ;p

I should try my best and do my part rather than bothering too much, I should love people rather than treat them as people, I should care for my love one rather than just telling them I love them, I should be happy because everyone I love is happy rather than because I am happy, I should be more willing to share and sacrifice rather than take and keep, I should plan for what I want to do rather than waiting for plan for me to do.

My new plan for the year:
I am going to learn how to love people.
I am going to learn how share and sacrifice for people.
I am learning how to give by best and be the only one for everything in my life.
I am learning how to spare my time for everything, school, work, you and mummy!
But if sometime if I don’t have time for you don’t blame me k :(
I am learning how to be a better girlfriend.
PS: Lao Gong if you find I am not good enough tell me ok! I will improve myself because of you ; p
爱你! 爱你! 爱你!

Labels: Holiday, Mummy, Relationship

My mum told me, Desmond have give up on me and yes it is time to give up on him too, it is easy to say then being done. I’ve try, but can I really? I decided to give it a try again, to start a new relationship and this time round I'm going to treasure him!

Thanks for choosing to be with me despite knowing my past record. I though both of us would never had a chance. It might seem quick that we are together as we are only so close this few days, but we’ve know each other for years. I believe we will last forever.

Being with you is not the though of one of two day. It has been weeks that I am thinking about it. Thinking if I really can give up on him and be with you! I am not sure if he will leave my heart completely. Even though I am with you now, there is once a few days, he would pop out in my mind again.

But trust me; give me sometime to forget him! I will do my best to give you my true heart. This time, I am not going to loss the one I love and who love me too. Treasure every days, hrs, mins , secs with you.

My stupid Pig I love you so so much!

我爱你!
真的真的好爱你!

Labels: Dear, Me, Relationship

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