I just want to continue with this type of relationship.

I know you are hinting me not to cross the line, but I don’t intend to too.

I have been through those lives and I know how it is!

Don’t worry too much, don’t think too much,

I know what I am doing and I won’t make any mistake!

I just want to learn more and have fun!

Nothing else....

Labels: Life, Thought

Maybe I should not be so busybody and waste my precious time to do what I think I suppose to do but in actual fact to others I am just trying to be clever. Sorry no more next time! If you think, I was the one who wanted to do everything, then whatever! You think I am so free to go all the way down to to help out and waste my 3hrs! I have much more better thing to do! I can't join you guy at night, so i go down early in the morning to help out a bit...

It was ____ who ask me to do all, if possible. I was intending to just do what I suppose to do, and leave the rest to you guy since I couldn’t help out at night. I should have knew this would happen; I even ask him if I should just do some and leave the rest to you guy, so you all can do and learn as well.It was him who asks me to complete everything and there are still other things for you guy to do.Shouldn’t have been so stupid to waste my time! I should just finish my job and fuck off, or even better hack care, since it doesn’t matter much with/ without me!

Well last sem, I would just do what I am told to and just don’t bother the rest. I can I do, if can't then just let it be.It doesnt matter anymore! I am sorry if I offend anyone but that me. Don’t like then FUCK OFF! I can’t be bother! Since you like to do everything, then you do, as long as you are happy!

Labels: Anger, Life, Thought

Labels: Life, Thought

Alright let see what I have done this month???

Oh ya, start my driving lesson 2 week already, ytd was my 2^nd lesson. It was an exciting and fun experience. I have learn a lot in just 2 lesson. How to move the car, stop behind the car and white line in time, control steering, reverse and turning pass the curve, signal left & right, U-turn, blah, I think that all haha…. Actually not really a lot also la! Haha tml would be my 3^rd lesson, looking forward to it : )

What next? Erm ya, pay increment by Uncle Robert, FINALLY ya! Thanks but is just the pathetic $1 really a lot huh??? Hell! 1 year and the increase was just $1, rubbish… But better than nothing la! I just cant accept the fact that I work there longer yet I get the same pay and treatment as the junior lol… But WHATEVER!

Last but not least my family day… This few week, I have been spent hundred of dollar on my mum and brother. I got to save more and eat less already. Went to JB last week and spend about 300 RM, then this week I just brought them to Orchard to shop and I bought a watch for my brother and myself, have a fruit pie at $10 and have dinner at Sakura International Buffet .I spent a total of $100 again… But it okies, as long we have fun and enjoy ourselves… Hiaz, Last month I brought them to Sakura International Buffet too, I don’t think I can afford to bring them next month…

Next month, I need to pay for my driving lesson again, this month I spent about $300 I think next month would be the same too. Then my hp and Internet's bill $50 each.Then I still need to give my mum $500 for her allowance, cause this month “BEAR” is not staying at my home le, so no income for her. Partly is my fault, so never mind $500 for her. After that, I still need to pay for my Swimming Instructor course which is around $160…

Oh no lot and lot of thing to pay… I am in deep deep shit. My next month pay would be just burn like this…. Got to save and save le!

Yup I think that all for this month, enough of update… Tata!

Labels: Life, Sept, Thought

I guess rumours and gossip is just something that spices up your life. People can’t live without gossiping others because then life would be boring. People love to listen to gossip because is like some idiot telling a story they nv hear before. It saves them the trouble from googling or read.

It simply just reasonable why people gossip. Now then I understand why Ivan can just ignore those interesting story create by them, because to them is the topic of the town, but to us I guess is just joke of the town… It like the clown making story and make people believe is the truth...
Dot, Dot, Dot

Since they like to say then let it be, soon it will be forgotten and they will get bored of it, just like Ivan and …..

Don’t need to deny or admit, just do what I need to!

Labels: Life, People, Thought

Kinda of disappointed with the people in the company, especially the boss. Felt that he is super unfair! Why am I so unlucky? Working in that company for almost 1 year and now then I got a pay increasement. Those who just join the company also got a pay increasement. What the Fish!

I help them to teach the most class, I give my very best, student recognize my hard work through their action, I product result, never fail to reject their request, unless I really can’t. So what more I need to do?

Tired and stress… I though it was a simple thing to work for the company but now then I realize is not. They use to be for homely...

The boss seems to care bout you but in actual fact, you are just part of his business plan. Once you have nothing to contribute to his business plan then you are out and be replace by others.

Why are human so easily be replace? Can I be someone who cant be replace? Cause i serously hate this type of feeling. I HATE IT!!! Not only at work place, but relationship too...

You have to always portray a prefect image if not; who knows you might be their next gossip topic.

I really have no idea how to stay on, but only to think of those kids that always brighten my day.
Nothing can replace their smile and result.

I have to keep telling myself since Uncle Patrick can bear with all those thing that is worst then mine, I would also can!

Btw going to upload my teacher’s present picture later.
Simply sweet …

Labels: Life, People, Thought

Labels: Dear, FYP, Life, Me, Swimming

Recently, I realize there are lots of weird people in the world. I think I shouldn’t called them weird but don’t know what this people is thinking lol. The more I mingle with all those high authority people, the more I feel this world is like WHF! Example: A well know swimming’s coach called me and ask me out for movie just to help his worker to match make. A boss called his worker to return uniform and say he will go his house to take. A boss loan money and thing from worker and nv return. A boss who change his decision like changing his shirt and blah, blah, blah, a lot more which don’t wish to mention.


I am tired… life seem so bored to me now a days. Nothing interesting happening, nothing interesting for me to do, meeting lot of weird people, doing the same old thing everyday… What can I do to improve this type of life? I don’t wish to continue this type of life, I need some change, holiday is coming I need to plan what to do for that 5 week so I wont waste it!


Going for Oversea trip? Nobody go with me! Work for 5 week? Too boring!


I wish I can go back to my secondary school life, it much more fun! School, work, friend, basketball and bf! Nothing much more can be better than that….

Labels: Life, Thought

I am so stress recently. Everyday FYP, FYP, FYP. Although I spend most of my time trying to learn and do my FYP, but I just seem to be so loss. Super duper lot of question in my mind and I just can blame myself for being so stupid and yet acting clever. I should have asked for help long time ago, yet I am so stubborn and keep on thinking I can solve it myself! I always blame other for being so clever yet I never blame myself for being so stupid. I always blame others for not helping me, when I myself don’t dare to ask.

I find that I have been thinking too much and are all too negative! How stupid am I to think that if I ask too much, Shige will think I am not hard working enough or never pay attention to him and he will deduct my point. The truth is I did try hard, but it just doesn’t goes into my head. Since I don’t understand I‘ve to ask. So what if he really will deduct point, the important thing is I learn in the process, rather than being so loss now!

Ytd I almost give up on my study. I even though of just drop out and coaching swimming will do, since by coaching I am able to earn a living already! But, is that what I really want? Christina is always like that, once she faced with obstacle, and stress, she gave up! I talk to myself for a long time. What can I do, and what I have done wrong that cause me to have this result?

Come out with two solutions, 1st: carry on to be so loss and hope I can just pass my fyp, if failed then that it…

2nd: Going to Shige ask the entire question in my mind and ask for help. Since I know I might fail, must well ask him and try to do a decent report. Even if I fail, I’ve try my best and I learn in the process.

Yes decided to go the second want. Going to skip Friday school and meet Shige for the whole day to clarify all my doubt. I’ve jot down the question I want to ask, I don’t want to be so losses again, hope I can do well this time.Last chance for me not to give up! If not I got to coach for my rest of my life; p

Labels: FYP, Life, Though

After coaching I went in to JB to find dear. Realise that I am like super glue sticking to him. Just one day never sees him, and I miss him like crazy. So went in JB to look for him… I was sort of scare initially, because it was my 1st time going in alone. But think of able to see him, everything was just nothing. Met him, and he gave me a super big surprise! He told me that his mum ask me to go home and eat! Lol should have told me early lol, and then I have more prepare hehe… Will wear nicer cloth and prepare my speech haha! Meet the parent session so so stress!

We have to wait for his daddy to finish his massage then we go fetch him, so we shop at City Square aimlessly for awhile.
-Brought egg tart for his family and me, chicken wing for him.
-fetch his dad home and rest at his home for awhile. He has supper cute family and I like them, especially his nieces. Super duper cute, just like me haha , both of us are “cute xiao she”… She talk a lot, I guess I was the same when I was small…

His mum cooks for us and keep durian for me to eat lol. DURIAN! My favourite hee... Thanks Aunty… Nice food and durian, so sweet of her to keep a box for me. I did eat lot of durian lol… But have to control, can’t eat too much too, if not I fall sick again then dear will bite me; p

After that we went back to Singapore, her mum wanted to go for a hair cut. Then dear would be sending me home. We were struck in the car for very long on the way back because of traffic jam. This is my first time taking a car back to Singapore, then I realise, having a car might not be that good. Sometime is faster to take public transport rather than have a car. But ya enjoy being struck because it means I can see my dear longer. But it would be better we can reach early so dear don’t need to drive so long, he must be super tired I think… Driving for almost the whole day…

Reach Singapore, went Sheng Shiong to buy some food and brought sweet for me and "Xiao She" then bring her to have KFC. Seriously she is super cute, I was wondering would our kids be like her haha… I really enjoy the meal at KFC. That was the most happiest and delicious meal I have in my life. It was just like, daddy feeding mummy and child, mummy feeding the child and daddy, the child feeding daddy and mummy… Lol super sweet… It’s something I’ve never experience before but have dream of it for long. She was like my daughter and I love to pamper her to see her smile :)

Happy, happy, happy… I love this type of life. I love my dear and his family !

Labels: Dear, Family, JB trip, Life, Relationship, Thought

Father’s Day???

I almost forget about this day until I saw all my friend blog…Never though of celebrating Father’s Day at all,because I don’t have a father. Well not that I really don’t have but I don’t want to have. So ya no father’s day like others who is busy celebrating Father’s Day. But wish those who are a good father : Happy ’s Father Day!

Got to go off to find dear... TaTa!

Labels: Father, Life, Though

School: School was boring as usual. UT grade might not be as good as what I wanted. The reason being I didn’t spend enough time to study and there is a few question I wasn’t really sure. Stay at school on Friday to do my FYP’s report. I don’t have a clear idea of what to do, but I just try. Come out with my introduction but wasn’t really satisfy with what I have done.

PS: Have to Thanks dear for accompany in school till so late, lol we study together till 8 plus almost 9pm. After that we went to watch movie at CWP. Not a very good show though, I would rate 2 out of 5 popcorn. Btw the show was “Blood the last vampire”.

Coaching: I have one new class added on Sunday at 9am. Lesson was quite fun, just that don’t know why, I make 3 kids cry ytd…Lol Unfriendly face I guess. Kinda of being too impatient and fierce I guess .I can’t believe I would punish the kid just in his first lesson. Should be more lenient I guess?

Labels: Coaching, Dear, Life, Relationship, School

Then next day went to have early breakfast. Supper tired wake up at 7am, just to eat that not good breakfast Zzz…. The best thing is by right we were not entitling to the breakfast because the person who book for us forget to help us right. 707 companies, not good wont go to that company again! But we just slip in lol Haha but my cousin was unable to join us Haha because he went to check and left us there to enjoy our breakfast haha.

After that we went to Sunway Lagoon. By right we were suppose to go there to play, if follow my plan. But we end up shopping for the whole day and everyone was supper bored and tired. Seriously regret I never go and play. Go Sunway but never play! WTF!

We took a cab down to Time Square, where there shopping centre is 10 times bigger than CWP, my Lao Gong told me de la! And they have the rollercoaster in the shopping mall. It look dam exciting but expensive so I never sit.

Oh when we were there something very funny. My uncle is a very so called “stingy person” so he doesn’t realy like to spend. Always save,save,save! So he always bring us go eat the cheapest food, which is food court and the food was like Zzz… So when we were there, he suggest going to food court to eat again. Then my naughty cousin, purposely choose restaurant. He ask us go eat SUI KING. Haha majority win. Everyone eat SUI King, as a result he went to eat Mac and we eat Sui. LOL his poor wife and daughter have to pei him! HAZI sad they should just follow us to enjoy.

Alright then shop at there I brought a jean and a key chain for Dear Dear. Hehe is a pig head written Sha Zhu and Ben Zhu. Don’t know why went I saw this word Sha Zhu I think of him, hehe so I brought it for him lol, since he always called me SHa Po :)

Then we went to the Chinatown at KL, they sell lot of Imitation: LV, Levi, Adidas, Nike, etc. All at super cheap price provided you bargain with them. I brought a (Tiffany &co.) necklace and 2 pair of sunglasses at 50RM.

Then we went back hotel again, my mum and brother went to sleep and I went shopping with my cousin.

Next day wake up have breakfast, delicious. Super worthwhile, it been a long time I have enjoy myself. Nice hotel (4 stars) and nice breakfast. Then we went to take photo, shopping and prepare to go home.
Reach home at around 11plus and Zzz… Gd night!

Labels: Family, Holiday trip 2, Life

Alright enough of my love update, too much of love make me forgotten about my daily life. Got to update my Genting trip!

Well is kinda of boring, too crowded and weather wasn’t that cooling. Whatever you play you need to queer up and it really killed the fun. It took us around 1hrs to wait just to play a game. WHT! I just play about 4 games and I decided to give up. Went back to hotel and have a bath. It really humid and it make me sick. I can’t believe I can bath cold water, eat ice cream and wear short and t-shirt at Genting.

Oh ya but I went to the restaurant that my Lao Gong tell me. Its down the hill, you need a bus to get down. If walk, I think you need about 1hrs ba? Haha have no idea. Nice place to have dinner, lot of people, but the food I find it quite ok only la! Maybe is because the food they order is not my favourite, they don’t want to order the food I recommend: ( so forget it. Just eat and SHUT UP! After eating we take photo and take the bus back to hotel. Lol btw, the durian they sell there smell dam nice but expensive though. So I didn’t get to eat :(

Mummy say too expensive ask me don’t eat! Lol I miss durian so so much! It has been a long long time since I consume nice durian, wondering when I can have it again …

When we get back, we went to play again, this time round lesser people cause going to close le ma! Only stupid people like us will go and play but seriously it much better compare to afternoon. Much cooling and scary! Haha I play the scariest machine 3 times! After the theme park have close we went to play basketball. Wont a lot of ticket all by myself k! hehe my brother and cousin play all those no ticket de L This time not enough ticket to change thing only able to change a teddy bear for mummy as birthday present. My intention was to change something for Lao gong de but Not enough, so sorry!

Then head back to hotel, brought a cake and wait for the birthday’s girl to come back and celebrate her birthday. Sing song, photo, eat, party and Zzzz slp!

Labels: Family, Holiday trip, Life

Lastly I need to say a really big thanks you to Uncle John. He makes me learn how to grow up. This is what happens. Last Sat, after my lesson I sit down with him to chit chat. Through the conversation he makes me realise or he taught me we shouldn't be like “a frog in a warm well and slowly being heated”. What does that mean? A frog would struggles and soon dies if you throw it into a hot well. However if you throw a frog to a warm well and heat it slowly, the frog would just stay there comfortably and one day just die off without knowing.

It really a good lesson for me. I make me realise all the while I am just like that frog in the warm well, slowly being heated and might die/ have already one day as well. This goes for both my work and relationship.

Work: I use to be a very hardworking person in my work place. Every one likes me, because I give my best to the job and I never slack. However even since I went to work in the café, where I can be late for work, go home early and do thing I want it to be and know want bother, my whole attitude changes. I use to think this type of job is really good and after staying there for a few months I adapt that kind of attitude.

So I have that kind of attitude at Sportslink, SLI and even attachment. I was working at Sport slink for year already so no one would scold me, or say anything bad bout me , ok fine carry on…..

SLI, well I admit I did put in much more effort in SLI because I love this job, but I know I can do even better… If I have done so, following the lesson plan and ask before I do anything, I wont make such a big messy in all my class now!

Attachment, yes it look like a very slack work place but is not. It really depends on individual attitude.

I always complaint that the boss don’t like my work and Wen sen is always better than me. However then I realise it all lies on my attitude. I do my own thing when I am here, I don’t know how to think and always to the wrong thing, I don’t take the initiative to ask, to do thing and to talk to other. How the hell people would like me? I still treat this place as my home, leave early and anyhow… Terrible!

Relationship: I have been living like a princess for 4 year. He just treats me like I am so valuable. He let me though I am really the best and people just can’t live without me. He make me though all guy with be as good as him and treat me like the way he does and yes he make me expect more every time.

After he leave me, then I came to know is not that case. Not every guy would give a dam to me. Not every guy is so nice like him. I shouldn’t take everyone for grant neither should I do that to him too. I really don’t know how to treasure what I have that why I ended up like this… I should learn to grow up. Learn to take care of myself before thinking of taking care of other, or allowing other to take care of me!

Labels: Attitude..., Life, Love, Work

One more post for my work. Work has been making me useless and even more useless. No matter how much effort I put in I just not as comparable as Wen Sen. Why is this so? The boss is always praising him and appreciating his work, but not mine. What else can I do to show them I am useful too? My work always seems useless to them. I seem like just wasting their time by looking at my presentation. It makes me feel use dumb and useless. I really can’t stand it anymore! It makes me really stress up when they assign work for both of us. Wen Sen is always doing the best thing but I am always to be see as not really good/ room for improvement.

Although there is some praise from them today, but it still really shows my work is just useless. Cause they would always only use Wen Sen work but not my. WHAT THE FUCK! I really did put in a lot of effort for that report. It took me 3 day to do and I even wake up 5am to do it just to do a really good report. BUT WHY WHY WHY???? Why they still don’t really appreciate. Is it because my language is not good enough? But that me, I have already try to improve and do my best. So what else can I do???? I try to boost my moral very day to come to work and do my best. I tell myself I can and it just 5 more weeks to go. But I am afraid this cant last long cause I am really stress up already. God please send an angel to guide me, I really had enough. Failure in work and relationship just shut my world down. I can’t take it anymore!

Labels: Life, Relationship, Work

-CHRISTINA GOH-
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