Tuesday, February 17, 2009 6:00 PM
I am so dam down now. I feel I am really useless. People around me are so knowledgeable, talented and rich, but not me. How can I outstand from them? I have been asking myself for a long long time, yet I couldn’t find the answer. I did try hard to gain as much knowledge as I could, but it just failed. I’ve attend course, read up lot of resources and studying really hard, but I just still can’t beat the rest. The information I know is still like only a quarter of what they know. Am I am working hard enough? I don’t know, really! I guess I am just useless and hopeless. A big failure in my school, work, relationship and a big big failure in my life!!!
I’ve just finish listening to their conversation and looking at there photo at different country. How I wish I can give this type of life to myself and my mum too. My mind keeps running through with negative though. How can I make as much money as possible to give my mum a good life? If only m daddy is rich, if only now I have the ability to earn $3000 a month! Then Mum, I can give you all this. I know you have nv ask for all those, but I seriously think you deserve all those. I promise I would work really hard to earn! After watching those photos, it makes me really feel like crying. Why other people can have that type of living, I can’t? I HATE my Daddy! But I HATE myself even more!Labels: I feel so useless