Thursday, March 12, 2009 4:37 PM
I feeling so complicated with my love relationship. I feel down and lonely when I am single and when no one likes me. However when people around me start to fall in love with me I feel so irritated and hopes they can just leave me alone! 1st they are too attach to me and I don’t wish to cause I don’t have any feeling with them. Going out with them or being too close with them only adds on to even more “Wu Hui”. However I just can’t find way to reject them, they just don’t seem to understand or they seem to act blur.
For example: This guy, keep finding chance to meet me. I have swimming lesson on every Tue and Thursday and it end quite late around 10, so he would come down and fetch me home. I already keep telling him, don’t need, it ok, I can go home myself … But still hazi… How should I tell him then? If I too direct, I might loss a friend but I don’t want ppl to “Wu hui”. Cause he know some of my classmate there and everyone is asking him if i were here gf. Lol ><"
Then there is this guy smsing me everyday without fail and telling me he miss me alot (><").
This guy every time see me online, ask for my no, keep chatting with me Zzz.... blah, blah, blah!
Furthermore I don’t wish to have such a complicated love relationship. People start to think I am having a relationship with guy and that guy and so many on …. Lol if like that I would have lot of bf lol! Why can’t I just find a true love and that it! Should I just ask my ex to patch back and that it? However it seems like there is some gaps between us already. Not me but him! Ya that what I feel la! Don’t know what I should do and what am I thinking also la… just let it be, study and work is my 1st priority nothing else.Labels: Complicated Love...